clanger_on_acid, thanks for everything, really. You've been an awesome friend I've needed. I can't really put into words how nice you've been to me.
Thank you,
_se7enteen, for being my fellow SG Wannabe lover ♥. We haven't been friends for long, but I loved our conversations about music and even soccer players.
kelseypaige, you've taught me a lot on how a Christian should be and should not be. I love you. ♥
hoyah, you were one of my first friends on LJ. You taught me about icon-making, spazzed about Rella with me, and showed me how cute Yunho can be (:D).
prince_eros -- I really don't know what to say. You really do have something about your that makes people happy inside whenever they see you. You always make my day. ♥
OG언니 (
kyuppuccino), thanks again for helping me with my forum. And everything else. 진짜 고마워요, 언니~
taylormercury, I'm sorry for not always being there when you needed support, but thanks for being nice to me all the time. ♥
Thanks, ruler of the world (
oulan) for everything, too. It's true. Your Woo is one of the most sexiest guys on this planet.
especially in dragAnd
quixoxotic, I still think your fics are the best. ♥
To
defeated,
gliu_stick,
greenie_cgv,
helenecho,
izon_no_niwa,
charmmy,
kyujong,
magnolium,
missdrarry,
o17,
rikki_rose_trax,
roogba,
sarangx33,
earthgurl,
ellstars,
bulgocrazyi,
youenvyme,
jinjja,
sheepmachine,
duntuchdakei,
_liu_xing_meng_,
evil_zucchini: Sorry for not commenting much on your posts and not trying harder to get to know you more. I love you all, though. ♥
And major sorry to
alexchuu,
ami_kun,
sanctions,
chitikoo,
hachiiko,
flootist1661,
heygingersnap,
lavalier,
pumpflow,
thequondam,
trymylove,
wanso_superjso. I've just friended you guys and never got a change to get close to you.
For all of you other guys, I'll see you at school. ♥
Alright, so most of you guys should know by now -- I'm leaving. Yeah. I know. You're probably like "She just made a new account and now she's
going?? WTF is she thinking?!"> I don't blame you. But please consider that there are some rushed people in this world. Like me.
Actually, it wasn't that rushed. I've been thinking of this from a month before I left for Cambodia/Korea. You know when I came back I said I was thinking of deleting my journal? I didn't. I made a new one instead. I thought I could start over, relax a few things, finally calm down some. I was getting behind on my schoolwork. My Christian life was fading. I felt like I was wasting my time. But instead of slowly retreating, I got more into LJ and now look at me: this morning I come home with an F on a test, my mom's disappointed in me, and I'm left crying on the floor. How many times has it been? Too many. Way too many.
I need to study. I need to focus on what I have to do. God has to be my #1 priority. I need Him.
So I've decided to just... stop. The whole thing. I can't manage this anymore.
I want to be
human again.
Think I'm some immature kid who acts twice as fast as she should? Whatever. I'm just here to say something before I stop this. And to say thank you. And that I'm sorry.
And I have to do it before I lose control of myself again.
There are, of course, some places I cannot leave because of obvious reasons.
recollide will still be open. My dad's already bought me all of this Photoshop equipment and it'll be a huge waste if I don't do anything with it.
I will also still participate in
toyoil. I have to share the music I love ♥.
I'll probably stay at SPBD as well. It doesn't take up much of my time. Anyway, it needs another dedicated mod. -cuddles it-
I will still be the maintainer of
b_attle,
sn_a, and
the_a_d, unless anyone else wants to be. You'll probably do a much better job than me. Also, I will be leaving
suju_icontest (super sorry, Liz ㅠㅠ) and
bigbangicontest (does anyone want to be the mod? If not I'll just close it down.)
So... I guess that's it. Defriend me as you wish. Hate me as you wish (for reasons totally your own.) Think I'm a retarded fucktard (which I am most of the time).
But I love you all. So much.
Please know that.
Bye,
Yuri. ♥